Ugh. . .

So, why do I continue to post, if I find no joy from doing it?  That's an excellent question. . . but not for me.  Because I have no clue why I do.

Guilt?  Nope, I don't really feel guilty for letting y'all down.

Pleasure?  I thought I already said I get no pleasure from doing this.

Pass the time?  I think that's probably my best answer.  Other than that, the only reason I post is because a few people pestered me about it.

Please others?  Naw.  Who takes any pleasure from reading this?  I didn't think so. . .

So, hate to say it, but I might just quit eventually.  No one follows me who I don't see like every week at church (except for you Rachel) and no one is really even "into" my blog much.  Sad, but true, I have become very busy.  Believe it or not.  I used to say that a lot, amd half of the time it was a lie to esplain why I wasn't posting, but now I can safely say I have become very busy.  Music, school, band practice, church things, holidays, and the biggest work of all, writing.

As some of you know (most of you if not all of you) that I love writing.  Love it.  And I hope one day to become a famous author.  But, like 90% of the jobs out there, it's hard.  And if you really want to succeed, you need to work hard at it.  So I write a few hours everyday (the days that I can), and that really sucks time from my schedule.  And the desktop I was using broke down (and I sadly lost a few books that I had started to write.  One had 129 pages, and the other had like 60 or 70, and I completely lost all of that.  But Dad got a new laptop on ebay, and so hopefully I will start writing on that.)  So. . .

Oh yeah, and I babysit almost everyday.  Whether for an hour, or five, I do.  And I have to keep a good eye on the girls when that happens. 

Exuses, excuses, excuses.  You want to know the real reason for me not posting anymore?  I've said it already.  I just lost interest.  It's not as fun as it used to be.  And if I don't read your blog, I'm so sorry.  I just never think about blogger anymore.  It's school, writing, and email that I get on the computer for.  Occasionaly games.  But that's it.

So give me a break.  Give yourself a break.  Or in the words of a famous guy (Jullian Smith) "Why don't we all just take a giant chill pill, and think this through!"

Chow chow y'all!